Saturday, February 18, 2012

crushed!

Yesterday we received a phone call that we thought would never happen.
At least not at this point in the process.

Another family, somewhere, is also desiring to adopt the little girl we have already called our own.

I think I was in shock yesterday as I sat and listened to our agency tell us about the email they had just received.

Today, as I look at the things we couldn't fit into her care package that we just mailed on Wednesday, I cry.

Our agency has no information other than what I just shared.

They will be traveling to Thailand next Friday and meet with the DSDW Board and all of the social workers in Thailand as they hand deliver our dossier.

Our dossier that requests to adopt this little one.

Our agency is hoping that they will find out more information.

We are praying that we are farther along in the process and that it will be considered, if we are.

We know ultimately that this is all in the Lord's hands.

Until we find out for sure about our little girl ~

We won't know where we go from here.

I asked God to give me a fresh new Word this morning.

So I've waited.

And He spoke.

"Pray for the other family."

So I pray.

Not really sure what I'm to pray for~

Other than for the Lord to comfort them if they've been told the same information from their agency.

Praying for peace for their hearts, as well.

Today as I read my devotional, Jesus Calling, it was EXACTLY the fresh new word that I needed to hear from my God and my Savior.

His Word reminding me that He is ALWAYS with me! And that He is holding me by my right hand. Guiding me with his counsel and taking me into his glory afterward. And although my flesh and my heart may fail, God will always be the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:23-26)


The first scripture after the devotional that took my breath away?


"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17

Our sweet little girls' life verse!

Thursday, February 9, 2012

alive and kickin'

Has it really been T.H.A.T. long since I last posted?

I thought I should come up for air!

and write a quick post.

We have been waiting to hear back from Jackson's visit with the craniofacial team 2 weeks ago to find out why he is not talking like he should be able to at this point.

We are hoping to have the final report tomorrow.

The first information we received from the Speech Language Clinician was that we needed to be tougher on him.

It broke my heart.

He's stubborn.

Not to mention S.T.R.O.N.G.   W.I.L.L.E.D.!

But oh so loveable and snuggleble  (is that a word?)

The last thing the pediatrician told us before we left was that the SLP was thinking that he might have Neurological Apraxia.  Which I guess is also call Childhood Apraxia of Speech.

This isn't anything that we've been told as a definite thing.

Apraxia, from what we've read, is when someone knows exactly what they want to say, but the neurological processes that must occur to make it happen don't occur.  This could be because of low muscle tone, motor coordination, synapses not firing, etc.

Jackson DEFINITELY knows what he wants to say!

and boy, he has ALOT to say!

but it just.doesn't.come.out (so that we can understand it)

Our SLP at school and his other teachers are thinking that it is more along the lines of Velopharyngeal Insufficiency.  Which is determined through scoping and other methods. (with Apraxia as secondary)

Our purpose in going to see the craniofacial team was so that this could be completed.

It wasn't!

We mentioned it to each doctor that came into the room.

Doctors can be frustrating.

We are hoping to be able to update the blog tomorrow with a definite prognosis and a plan!

But on the brighter side...

These are the words and phrases that we can understand when Jackson says them:

Mama
Daddy
Sydney
Jadon
Jackson (sometimes)
Maggie
eat
please
drink
more
thank you
bye bye
yes
no (sometimes)
water
Sorry Mama
Please Mama
Thank you Mama
I love you Mama (finally spontaneously in the middle of Sam's Club) Melt my heart!!!!!
I see?
What's that?
Where's _______?

Would you be able to understand him?

Probably not!

Everything is a vowel sound, except the occassional "m".

But I guess all of our kids started in this manner!

He does have a larger sign vocabulary and is beginning to string 3 signs together. 

He told Sydney yesterday in response to her telling him to listen...
"NO! YOU LISTEN!"



We were able to get a few good pictures of him on Chinese New Year!  I can't believe how big he's grown!

Will try to get those on soon!